My birthday?? Where did the time go??

I will be forty in a couple weeks - what the crap is up with that?? Last time I checked I think I was 32 - LOL!!
I no longer really do karaoke, online karaoke or pixel art or well, anything fun at all - looking back on forty years and seeing way too many regrets - when I graduated from high school, I remember my quote in the yearbook as being "to never regret anything" What happened to that person? Where is she? And where did my life go?
My dad is heading back to the hospital today with another blood infection - I tried thinking positive yesterday and turning over my worries for a bit - I have realized that is all but impossible in my life - I just hope my angels hear my prayers that we find a peaceful way through this situation. . .have you ever began to believe that there will be NO good answers??
Need to go get groceries with my three year old in tow - joy joy. . ..then I will come back here, cook dinner, do freaking dishes, go to bed and get up tomorrow to head back to Pitt to see my dad. . .hopefully for once this Sunday will actually BE a day of rest for me - I am burnt out. . .