Going to start up my blog again - just need a place to stick my thoughts. As many of my close friends know - have been through a lot this year in terms of my family I moved in Aug 2007 - my mom, who I loved soooo much she was like my best friend, passed away from emphysema in Oct 2007. My half brother was then killed in a vehicle accident in Feb 2008. Then my dad had a major blood clot in June of 2008 and has been hospitalized since then. Some days, it takes every ounce of my energy just to face another day. I have lost so much of who I thought I was along the way. All the things I used to do have stopped having meaning. It is so hard some days to have my hubby staying hours away all week and to still be a good mommy to my two wonderful children - they are polar opposites and 9 years apart - switching roles sometimes feels like pulling teeth.
Trying to be a good daughter, a good wife, a good mother, a good sister, a good friend - I have lost myself along the way. . .the good thing is I have also discovered a strength I didn't know I had - even before the last two years, I went through a LOT of tough situations, but the challenges of the last two years have sent me reeling at times. I used to love to sing, to do pixel art, and so many other things, but my life has lost its luster - here I hope to document one beautiful thing for every day to remind me why I am here.

Todays beautiful thought: There are angels surrounding us always, like guardians and friends sent from Heaven, asking them for help is all they wait for.